hrm.

veterans day tomorrow and we have no school (:
yay.
hm so i havent posted in a while so i thought why not? got time and got shit to say..
report cards came out today and im real satisfied, yay me. my mom actually said i did a good job! lol thats a first in a while. gotta keep this shit up and raise all my grades to As and yeah. ace the first semester to avoid finals at the end of the year. last year in high school, hot damn!

lovinggg on my mind, wrapped up packed up. i love this song.
hm idk what to really write cause yeah nothings really been going on minus some personal shit but this is not the place. lets just say i know who my true friends are and fuck the haters? yeah ill leave it at that. senior year has been a roller coaster, when will it just be a breeze, just coasting through the year? hopefully soon!

yeah nothing to write anymore lol great post ey?
xoxo.

life as a senior

oh jeeez. what a year its been and it just started lol, fml

classes:
spanish 5- whatta bitch...to think that it'd be easy and chill but its not. i mean too much reading and shit and the teacher is hot and cold all the time. blahh thank god for friends in the class (:
psychology- a class full of preps and shit. lol i'm glad i have kay paek in that class. she chill she chill. made friends with shin jang. that bitch is great. lol who woulda ever thought!
ap lit- fuck my life. i hate this class. oh goodness! i always get As in english [not to be conceited] but yeah i do and fucking miller is killing me. i do not understanddd. i am not in college so i should not be getting graded ): i wanna die but not really. hopefully i will truly learn something in this bullshit class.
forensic science- i took this class to thinking it'd be a breeze but i thought WRONG. renberg's tight but shit the bitch grades like a goddamn bitch. blah at least some parts of it is interestingg.
multimedia design- i love mrs. risi. best class ish. its chill and i know what im doing!
adv. math- this is not my bullshit class. i am learning. lol done!
ap gov- good class. good teacher. good people!

yeah so there's my sum up of the classes im taking. whooopeedeeedooo. i hope you enjoy reading all that shit. so yeah my classes are like datt and damn friendships. wow. lol that should tell you a lot right?

here's the low down. when people tell you don't need a whole lot of friends just close ones, they're right. the year has just started and so much shit has happened already. blah it all sucks it really does but what can ya do? nothing. there's always something happening and i'm too tired to care anymore. i have my constants and i love them. its tragic, it is but it's not me doing shit. idk what im doing wrong? someone just tell me. i lost a best friend and losing another. blah. i hate trying or caring when others don't. i think i put a lot into my friendships but its never truly enough. its a damn shame. whateverrrr i know who my true friends are, always and foreveer.

on a brighter note, HOMECOMING 09! legit shit. i went with mister patrick esteraaa. lol best date. hot date (; fasho. hm got a forever dress and yeah. i shall post up photos. i was expecting it to be a bust but it wasnt. the DJ was shit and the floor was gross. fucking stepped on shit but hey i looked good. looked good with my date too. i keep bringing him up only cause hes that great. good memories. thank you to all that pushed me to go [evelyn and angi] haha. yeah dudes, goooood shit.

colllege apps and essays. fuck my life. i gotta start that shit legit. i will dedicate one weekend to do it all SOON! next weekend or something lol. fuck fuck fuck!

k im done. bye!

holla if ya need me!

i feel like fighting someone with words or physically... fuck the flow.
i'm bored with life and i wanna have my own car so i can do whatever the fuck i wanna do whenever i wanna do it. I HAVE NO JOB which means i have no MONEY which also means i have no means of getting myself a car. even if i had a car id have to pay for all that extra shit. BLAHH WHY CAN'T I BE A RICH BITCH WHO GETS WHATEVER THE FUCK SHE WWANTS? lol

oh yeah if you didn't realize it by now, this is a ranting/venting post just because i fucking feel like it. (:

so my day went like this. i was woken up at 11 or so to get ready and go out with the mom and bro. we went to fairoaks mall to focus on my bro and his damn school shoes. spent like i dont eeven know but we left since my mom didn't like anything. drove to dick's and got him shoes. got starbucks. went to park n shop then went home. WHATTA DAY! i hate being the middle child. i hate going out with my mom and jerm at the same time. sucks hard cold ballls.

blah blah bleeeeeep. still gotta do summer assignments. one more week. FUCK MY LIFE! why can't it be summer FOREVER? id like thattt. hm seniors, woot? so sad. its our last year. LIVE IT UP!

k im done, bye!

hellllllo
long time no bloggging
lets see. its summmer
went to cali for two weeks which was amazing
i loved sanjo, sanfran, and santa cruz. amazing places with amazing people.
came back to reality and just chilled with friends and yeah
did a night where shit went down, memories<3
bowled a lot. GOT BEN KIA TO KISS MY HAND LIKE A PRINCE
lol uhh yeah. k byeee

fourth of july 09

its 8:50AM and i'm still awake blogging!

ahh. ok so woke up at one... lol chilled and started to get ready for ev's bbq and fireworks! ah lol angi just got her insurance so she was giving me a ride. [ first permit passenger and first license passenger, i'm honored ] got ready and janxx. i wore a dress! yeah a real dress haha i'm officially a girl now (; angi came around 4ish and damnn it was so exciting! she was driving all alone. her dad was trailing us to make sure we were all safe but he kept his distance and was really chill. gots to love mr lantin! we got to ev's house kinda early since it started at 5. she was in the shower lol and was taking foreverr then she didn't let us in her room. whatta hoe [ love you though! ] moving on and skipping ahead. she got ready. we all wore dresses! we cute we cute. helped setupp errthang. cut some tomatoes and lettuce! went to shoppers for stuff. got home and started the lovely feast. nom nom nom. all american meal including: hamburgers, hot dogs, fries, chips, cherries, salad, and a soda. pluss the greatness of some hot R&B tracks. love love! dom and darb arrrived and yeah we chilled, ate...so fucking fulfilling! finished eating and went to visit philo at her house since she couldn't get out. haha rode in the car with my bfff dom, he's a boring driver who don't give a fuck if he gets tickets so he was driving dumb but whatevs. err got to philo's and just chilled. FINALLY! met her rents, they seem really nice. sat in her waiting room? or something and just chatted. i miss herrr =/

went back to ev's to.. chill in the basement and yeah lay around basically haha. started the works at idk what time around 9 and just chilled outside. nice weather. nice people. nice site seeing. what beats that? oh right, nothing! but yeah after all the janx we just chilled in the back of angi and dom's cars. uh not getting into deets cause that's too much but yeah. after all the gents left we went inside to chill and chat. it was greattt. mm after talkin thanh and pat came over then we chilled in the car for a little and rolled out. nighty night eveerrrleeeeen.

back to my house. roof time. chat time. no sleeping! first co-ed sleepover. i'm tired. but i can't sleep so i decided to blog about my fourth this year. i hope i don't crash and my mom questions this haha. love love!

till next time.

btw; i love my lil bro for saving me two SPARKLERS!

&& LOOK! new profile ppic. i feel like i look ghetto with dem puffed lips.. haha

live your life

summmer has begun!
why is it that i've done more when school was still going on then when its out? i feel like i've been held captive in jail! fucking dumb as fuck. lets see what i've missed blogging on since i haven't in like a few yearss. ( not really. )

hoodrat saturdayss!
started like two weeks ago. the fab four had a day out doing random shit. ev and angi were sleeping over and philo couldn't since her rents don't know me yet ): but we went to spirit rock for the first time. that was fun! it's a mini mini version of the quarry but it's beter than nothing. after fun time at spirit rock we went back to my house to clean off and chill. went back out at 8. philo had to go home ): but ev angi and i went out to manassas and yeah didn't do much. went to old navy, bath and body works then baja fresh! fucking great food. we spent most of the time in the car cause we had no idea what to do and where to go. eff our lives for being so dull! we ended up going to piedmont to chill with darb and yeah. chilled in her car for like four hours haha. picked up ben kia and chilled with him then went to thanh's. ev knocked out while angi and i were being dumb. did our nails and did a shotgun for the first time. got home around 5ish AM and ate then knocked out. yeahh man.

second hoodrat saturday wasn't much. chilled with ev rojojo thanh and angi. mm went to ev's house, chipotle, my house and yeah. angi slept over and at night we went to darby's. didn't do anything... blehhh! lol whatevs suckk dick.

exams are over. summer started.
lets see i've hung out with rojojo the past two days before she leaves for thailand. we hung out with fabian, dom, and ryan. that was good. oh yeah! went to spirit rock and piedmont pool on monday with ev, darby, rojojo, angi, philo, fanchon, dom, and ryan! i do believe iam getting tanner (; lovess it.

mom started bitching about going out too much and shit. i've been ignoring her and she has yet to confront me but whatevs. suck dick.

i've got goals for summer and i plan on acccomplishing them somehow, someway. lets see how that goes.

till next time...

late night television

sitting on the couch watching law and order svu
i don't recall seeing this episode. weird lol i thought
i saw them all. guess not.

hmm so i woke up early-ish today to go out with my mom
gift hunting for stad's 48th birthday!
got him a bvlgari cologne set. smells yummmyyy
got a free sample of the lacoste cologne too
fucking sexxx

can't wait for the feast tomorrow!

...

so it started off as a really good day
had a bombass water rocket that flew high
then did pretty well on reciting my spanish poem
and yeah it was all good...
after school was bleh. everyone felt so sad and just depressing
it's the weather, it's the weather..no its not. its life. life sucks

got home
called my granny
she's well... not really
shit is going down and idk what to do anymore
i wanna get away
just runaway
leave it all behind and start fresh with the ones i love
too bad that is impossible.

this was a good day turned bad and idk how it will get better from here
sorry for the depressing blog
venting. bleh.

love love

season finale of one tree hill
goodness
how much of this can i take? forrealss.
just finished gossip girl and my god
i am the biggest sap because that was
the cutest shit i've ever seen!!!
chuck bass... when's my prince charming coming?!
i cannot handle it anymoreeeeeee!

so testing is a bitch!
AP English was bleh whatevs. Algebra 2 SOL was aigght
studied my booty off the night before so i think i did well?
US/VA SOL on friday. hoping to pass or pass advance it!
Physics and Spanish FINALS! omg i'm so exciteddd. not.
it's gonna be a bitch but that's what i get for not getting all As.

so i wanna be a wedding planner. legit. i think?!
idk i'm so indecisive

stoked for prom next year
dress. shoes. hair. nails. the whole nine yards!

random update
wanna say more but my brain is mush
this is all for now folks!

empty room

so i'm moving tomorrow officially
my room is naked
my house isn't a home anymore
...
fresh start.

that sounds depressing but i'm excited
a new beginning...down the streeet!
lol. sounds dumb but whatevs.
hopefully i'll have pics.. prob not
since i'm a lazy motha.

can't wait for all my planned visitors this weekend(:

let me be your fantasy, i know you dream of me (:

SPRING BREAK 09.
sucks balls!
lol everything starts off great till it starts to go down south.

FRIDAY: chilled then had a girls night at night with jenny, angi, ashley and evelyn(:
it was ashley's little goodbye thang too since she's freakin in boston ALL break!
ahhh. i miss you boo! but yeah we had a late start cause i had to wait
for the car but it was goood after that. picked up angi, got afghan kabobs to go,
ev's house to eat and gossip<3 what's a better thing to do?! nothinggggg.
gah i love food and girl talk all in one night(:

SATURDAY: my day with conn bon (: i've been missing this chick like no other. she's
my other half, my sister. she comes over and i'm laggginn getting ready and it's all
chill till my mom gets back and knows what to say to make me go from a happy
mood to a bitter betty! we go down and say hey to her in the kitchen and then she
breaks the news that kenny (this feng shui guy) said that i'm not allowed to get
the room i wanted in the new house because it's not good for me and that
jeremy gets it. WTF IS UP WITH THAT? i called that room but no suprise she doesn't
care. whatever jeremy wants, he gets. -____- i'm sick of that bullshit right there.
after that i'm all bitter and it doesn't get any better since i have to literally go
back and forth from the new house to the old one about 10 times and can't do shit.
i felt so bad for conbon since she had to witness all this but whatevs lol. her fam too!
whatever so we went to thanh's and chilled with him and pat. went to my new house
with them and took a kristie adventure down the trail at the back of the house
in the dark...SCARY! lol ishh. after funtime at the new house we went to go see
I LOVE YOU MAN! ah so fucking funny and good. it's a must see.

SUNDAY: mom's bitching day. yay me. it was the best day of all break (weather wise)
and i was stuck at home... fml. packed. moved. got real angry. stayed angry.

MONDAY: stayed in bed all day. texted all day. watched making the band. got depressed.
i feel like hibernating or something. falling into a deep and slow depression here ):
eh the day is still going so lets see how things turnout.

i love how this all started at a high point and is falling slowy. (good song (: esp. when ev
and brobro sing it! )

I POKE HER FACE: KID CUDI, KANYE WEST, AND COMMON<3

i know you like the love we make(;

everybody's changing

and i don't feel the same

; keaneee

[i love them]

hooray! it's tuesday and it's ANGI'S BIRTHDAY!

happy birthday my loveeeeeeeeeeeee.

let's see i failed a math quiz i think and that sucks since i have

a 71 in the class already. fuck ittt. FUCK IT! i don't care (but i really do)

english was good. and yeah that's about it

went to lunch after with the crew at chik fil a

yummmmayyy. their shit is freakin' amazing. kinda a celebratory lunch for

angi ish.. lol. idk but yeah did the usual afterr. i'm a bum, we all know that.

OH YES! SAY YOU WILL!!!

monday after school ev and brobro and i went to tyler to read to lead to 

lil kiddos but that didn't work out so we decided to go  back to my place to

chill for a bit. after leaving tyler we needed to get gas so we went to 7-11 

and here's how it all went down:

-went to 7-11

-brobro got the gas and went inside to get a monster

-me and ev are in the car checking out the van next to us and talking 

about howw they look like rapists like those ppl in the movies haha

-they start cleaning out their car and one guy in the passenger seat

starts looking at us.. ev waves and then we start to chat

-"are you guys in a band?" "yeah we are!":O

-take a pic with one of the guys and we got demo CDs too.

-IT WAS AMAZINGGGG. lol they were so chill and before we left

we popped the CD in and blasted it, they're reallly gooood! 

yeah that's the story.. it's late so i made bullet points haha. love it.

i look like a chinese chipmunk ):

poooooooooped

he's just not that into you

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.
-He's Just Not That Into You

oh i love that freakin' movie so much!
everything they talked about in the movie was so damn true.
classic chick flick that us sappy girls go "aww" over!

HM so yeah friday after behind the wheel i came home and started eating dino nuggets
yummmay. got a rush of texts and janx about the movies so i was in the process of
figuring that out with ev and angi and ashley while i was around town looking at houses
to rent out. oh joy not really. basically ashley, ev, and stephanie (ashley's cool ass cousin)
went to the movies as we missed angi ):
got in there and was texting with angi and some big white douche bag behind me said
"DO YOU MIND KILLING THE LIGHTS?" and i was like shit what? so i just stopped
then during the movie me and ev were freakin out during the cuteness and the ass hole
behind us made snarky comments toward us... fucking ass. whatever
after the movie stephanie was said she wanted to start shit but didn't cause we didn't wanna
get into shit lol so we just stood around chatting till my stad came. great niggght.

this weekend is a bitch
not really doing anything except behind the wheel which is going good
LICENSE ON WEDNESDAY MOTHA FUCKAS(;
gotta clean the room and house cause inspectors and shit will be coming this week.
GREATTT. not whatever.

so i want a boyf
i miss the feeling of liking a guy
and if i never get one, ashley and i will sulk together
FUCK DICKS (literally and nonliterally :D )

till next time lovaasss

blah blah blah

monday.
joy.
not.
new week.
fuck!

ok so sunday was a fucking adventure
more like a roller coaster of emotions and activity.
had a long ass phone call with cendy and ashleigh about EVERYTHING
whoa baby lol. a two hour and some odd minute conversation
filled with tears. silences. and recovery.
all is well now and i'm excited for the future for everything that happened.
NEW BEGINNINGS!

after all that janx it was a normal night filled with procrastination and a rush
of homework and stuff like that. yay me for being a slacker!
oh shit. okay well...my little brother got into a beanie baby obsession..
idk how and idk why but he did and he's been bugging me FOREVER
about taking mines since i have a box of them but i keep refusing
and last night was a bitch. he kept coming in my room and climbing in my
closet trying to reach it and wouldn't get out so i had to do something...
BAD IDEA! i went into his room and snatched his journal (it's his most
secret thangg) and RAN LIKE A MOTHA since he was trailing me as if
i had a million dollars and given the fact my house isn't big at all. i ran to
my room and i had so much speed and impact that i couldn't stop myself
which led to me being a fast dumbass and running into my bed frame.
FUCK IKEA! motha fucka. idk how the hell it happened but i ran into it and
busted my knee open. fucking fell on the floor and went into shock.
it's like a long and deep open cut. -___- all from running away from my brother.
-fell
-laid grabbing my knee
-my bro was on my bed throwing a pencil at me and thought i was lying
-i screameed like a dying asian girl that has just been shot
-he waited like 2 minute before getting my mom since he thought i was kidding
-mom didn't come cause she thought i was kidding
-bro came back into the room and i was in tears and yelling some more
-ran back into my mom's room all serious so my parents run in
-FIRST AID KIT!
-cried from shock then STOPPED lol it was an amazing feeling since i had no
after effect from crying.. you know that after effect
-bandaged up and hopped around all night like an idiot
THAT'S MY STORYYY. lol so pathetic...*note to self: don't run in the house!

[right after]
[day after]
BATTLE SCAR MOTHASSS!

ok but yeah that's what happened
today was school
got a ride to school cause i was crippled...
lol took a sports test i failed
took a spanish quiz i did alright on
excited for tomorrow? no

KYLE XY tonighttt after this epi. only one more left..
):
WHY THE FUCK IS MATT DALLAS GAY?
ahhhh. they're always gay.
SLOFA is on tonight too [AMY HAS HER BABY?]
ew i'm a loser who needs her license and shit like that.

pray i'll start behind the wheel soon. must get it before spring break and my bday!
*note to self: sign up for SATs in May

xoxo

public!

so here's my public blog!
lol just what evelyn wanted.
it's gorgeous springtime weather out minus the fact that
it's way too cloudy. WHERE'S THE SUN?!
godddamnn staying home on a nice sunday sucks balls.
where are my parents when i need them? at work.
fuckkkittt.

HM! so my saturday was grreat
sunny. windy. and high 70s; what more can you ask for?
chilled around towns and made new memories.
love it.

short blog since i'm going to be active
and go out for a run(;
gotts to get in shape motha fuckas!